The Chronicle of Cressida Marquis
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December 1st

The school is thriving, though it’s hard not to feel the weight of responsibility pressing heavier each day. Ensuring the girls are well-prepared for society and the challenges life will inevitably throw at them is a task I take seriously. It’s gratifying to see them blossom, yet I can’t help but wonder if I ask too much of them—or myself.

Christian’s watchful eye has been more apparent lately. I know he worries, and his concerns are valid, but I wish he would trust me to navigate my own life. Dorian, ever the optimist, says I should let people in more. And then there’s John...

I didn’t anticipate how natural it would feel to share moments with him. He’s sharp, attentive, and, despite the chaos of this place, manages to ground me in ways I didn’t know I needed. Of course, the students have started to notice. Their giggles and whispers as we pass in the halls are both endearing and exasperating.

I told myself I wouldn’t allow distractions, not when so much is at stake. But perhaps, for once, I deserve a moment of happiness.

For now, I’ll let the days unfold, holding onto the quiet hope that I can balance duty and desire without tipping the scales.

-C.

December 2nd

Today, the frost clung to the windows of the school like delicate lace, a reminder of winter's quiet strength. It seemed fitting, somehow, as the halls echoed with the muted laughter of the girls preparing for the upcoming gala. They’re growing into poised, capable women, and I feel a bittersweet pride. Each one is a reflection of the purpose I have poured into this school, yet I know they will leave these halls someday, carrying only fragments of what I have tried to teach them.

John was particularly attentive today, assisting with the endless logistics that come with hosting such an event. His steady presence is becoming something of a comfort, though I’m careful not to show it too openly. There’s a fine line between maintaining professionalism and allowing something more personal to seep through. I see it in his eyes, though—a patience that’s disarming.

Christian continues his quiet observations. His protective nature is endearing, though occasionally suffocating. He forgets that I am not the girl I once was, needing guidance at every turn. The weight of our family legacy has made me stronger, sharper. I wish he could see that, but I suppose it’s a brother’s prerogative to worry.

As for Dorian, he managed to coax a smile out of me with one of his usual quips, this time about how “even the frost wouldn’t dare settle on my shoulders for too long.” I don’t know if he realizes how much I rely on his lightness to balance the darker threads of my day.

The truth is, there are moments when the grandeur of all this—the school, the gala, the legacy—feels like a gilded cage. But then I remind myself: a cage can be a sanctuary, too, if you make it so.

For now, I’ll allow myself the smallest indulgence—a whispered thought that perhaps, in the warmth of shared moments and quiet understanding, there is room for joy amidst duty.

-C.

December 3rd

The weight I’ve carried for so many years feels lighter tonight, though the air between Chloe and me is heavy with unspoken emotions. I finally told her the truth about her father. It wasn’t planned—perhaps it never could have been. There’s no perfect moment to unravel a secret that has shaped so much of our lives.

She asked me directly, her voice firm, her eyes unwavering. It was as if she already knew, deep down, and needed to hear it from me. So, I told her. I told her about the man who once held my heart with a fierce, reckless passion. How he promised me the world and, for a fleeting moment, I believed him. How that world crumbled when he walked away, leaving behind only questions and a daughter too precious to be defined by his absence.

Chloe didn’t cry, though her hands trembled slightly. I expected anger, maybe even resentment, but instead, she looked at me with something I can only describe as understanding. She’s stronger than I’ve given her credit for—so much like her father in her boldness, yet so very much her own person in her grace.

She asked me if I hated him. The question startled me. I told her the truth: I don’t hate him. Time has dulled the pain, and I’ve learned to see his departure not as a loss, but as a turning point. Without him, I might never have found the strength to build this life, to create this school, to raise her.

I don’t know what Chloe will do with this knowledge. It’s hers to carry now, to shape her understanding of who she is. I only hope she knows that whatever feelings she has—anger, curiosity, indifference—are valid. And that no matter what, she is loved beyond measure.

Tonight, as I sit here alone, the halls silent and still, I feel both a pang of loss and a glimmer of hope. Perhaps this revelation, difficult as it was, will bring us closer. Perhaps it will free us both.

-C.

Julian is back.

I wish I could write those words with a sense of joy or relief, but instead, my hand trembles as I pen this. His return stirs memories I’ve tried to bury and fears I can never quite shake. Julian Thorne—our cousin, our shadow. The one who always seemed to walk a path just dark enough to unsettle the rest of us.

Christian is already tense, his gaze sharper, his shoulders heavier. He’s watching Julian’s every move, and while I know he’ll never admit it, he’s bracing for a confrontation. Dorian, true to form, insists we should welcome Julian back with open arms, but even he can’t hide the flicker of unease in his eyes.

And me? I don’t know what to feel. Julian’s talents, his manipulation of shadows, always unnerved me, but what truly lingers is the way he looks at me—as though he sees a part of me I’ve worked hard to hide. His presence has a way of unearthing the doubts I keep buried: am I strong enough to lead this family? To protect the school? To safeguard Chloe?

That last fear grips me most. Chloe’s rebellious spirit makes her a perfect target for Julian’s influence, whether he intends it or not. Christian has already voiced his concerns, but I don’t need his words to feel the danger. Chloe, with her sharp mind and endless curiosity, might see Julian as an ally, someone who understands her in ways I sometimes struggle to.

I told myself I wouldn’t let fear dictate my actions, but tonight I feel its pull, its icy tendrils creeping into my thoughts. Julian claims he’s here to support us, to strengthen the family, but I’ve learned that words are slippery things, especially when spoken by someone as clever as him.

I’ll keep my distance for now, though I know Julian will push, as he always does. He thrives on getting under our skin, and I can’t afford to let him under mine. There’s too much at stake.

But if he threatens Chloe, the school, or the family’s fragile stability, I will not hesitate to remind him who I’ve become. He may think he knows me, but Julian has yet to see what I am truly capable of.

For now, I’ll tread carefully, but I’ll keep my guard up. Shadows may bend to his will, but they cannot swallow the light.

-C.

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